I grew up with a Greatgrandmother who settled in the Indian Nations of America. It was the Oklahoma Land Run. Anyway, she never took us to church. I wonder if she had ever been in a church. She read from the bible and washed our feet before bed and recited The Lords Prayer. I've had this prayer in my Heart for as long as I can remember. I think some people, who have little wealth, feel like they don't deserve to be in church because they don't have what most others do. I have seen how the pecking order goes in churches I've been to. My Grandmother never went to church either but she did study the Bible. I have been to church alot. I am not sure I will ever go to a church again. I am okay with it though. I would like to see other places people worship God. Maybe I will someday.
P.s. I could not help but feel your words trying to comfort me. I am moved by your compassion. I thank you for your kind words. It's not easy to throw yourself out on the board to help another.